Project Not Happy
Mar 15
Posted: under Personal.
The Project isn’t really happy about the last post. Hey, I thought it was funny and that’s all that matters, right?
Ok, so she’s really upset because I haven’t been cooperative exactly. She tries to be supportive and helpful but sometimes I manage to just get kind of pissed off and completely ignore her. This becomes a bit of a bone of discontent among us.
I suppose I haven’t made it sound otherwise, but the real problem is me. I tend to be kind of paranoid and pessimistic if you will. I tend to assume things (most notablely spoken words…) have a negative connotation. It’s like everyone is out to get me. I know they’re not, but that tends to be my gut instinct anyways.
I never used to be that way. I used to be easygoing. I tended to give people the benefit of the doubt and assume that they weren’t being rude even if it seemed like they had been. I don’t think it was ever some sense of altruism or somesuch on my part though. I think it was more of a way of avoiding confrontation. The sad part is that I still avoid confrontation in most cases, and instead keep my negative thoughts to myself.
( It’s always fun to start writing an entry and have no idea where you’re going and end up someplace totally unexpected… 
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